Monday, June 23, 2008


So here I am at a new blog site. Sweet. I wonder if this'll be of any use to me. We'll see. We'll see. Writing has always been a passion of mine (not that I'm any good at it, though I so love it). Right now I'm just trying to figure out a lot of shit. A lot of stuff. Everything & nothing. What a great mixture. It's always good to have a balance I suppose. To keep things from falling off the axil. To keep things from becoming TOO chaotic. But what happens when things aren't balanced out and it's only a mesh of one big problem? Does it become too much to handle? And even if it does can you fight it? Who knows?

I'm one ball of a MILLION questions. All of which are unanswered. It sort of makes me feel uneasy, but that's life for you. There are no answers just questions. So I guess when the going gets tough, you just make up the answers along the way. Whichever sounds good to you is the right answer. And whatever you don't like you can throw it away in an imaginary garbage can or an imaginary shelf that you don't have to look at.

That's also what life has come to: "Not looking at where you're going?" Bumping into things (this is all a metaphor mind you, how I love metaphors. They make life more interesting). Getting into trouble. Getting into predicaments. Fighting for what you want, even if you don't know what the hell you're fighting for. I suppose you should fight anyhow.

Hell, I don't even know what I'm saying. This is all being written in a matter of seconds. I'm just spewing forth random words. Trying to make sense of it all. Maybe one day it'll make sense. But: what would be the fun in that? (Right.....? Or wrong?)

Maybe life's about getting lost. And if it is......hopefully you can get lost into something magical/powerful. Something really good. Well this is the end of this first entry of mine. It's 2:26 am and although sleep doesn't sound inviting right about now, I'm logging off.

2:30 AM